i saw a mouse, actually two!
August 11, 2006
um, i have had a fear over the past 24 years of life, as you can see a pretty consistent one … and that is that i am scared to death of mice! i mean i cringed at the thought of seeing them or thinking of them even in a cage. it grosses me out to think of them running rampant wherever they want without any supervision.
this summer, twice now i have seen a mouse. the first time i was in the basement of one of my dearest friends and i was just reading before i feel off to sleep, when all of a sudden i see a four legged wonder scamper across the floor. i literally froze. grabbed my cell phone and called my friend ellen, who was upstairs! i made her come down and save me from the horror of this creature. all was fine, i went upstairs and never went back downstairs for the rest of the two weeks of my stay.
the most recent encounter took place wednesday, i was sitting so very nicely on the couch of another dear friend when all of a sudden i recounted the incident that took place in june …. this little mouse came out of no where into the closest directly across from where i was sitting. i almost freaked out, put my feet in the air and wouldn’t move. but i did remain more calm than the first time. the strength of the homeowner was called upon and he decided to conquer the fear that i had by going and attempting to kill the mouse. well, long story short, i left the house that night with a mouse still alive and i am not sure if he is dead yet or not, but what i do know is that i handled myself so much better the second time around than i did the first. i guess that is what facing your fears does to you, it makes you more at ease when you have to face the very thing that causes everything within you to shutter. and the most important part was the fact that i was not facing my fear alone. my two heros rescued me in the place of fear.
will i ever let my children have mice in the house as pets? you can be sure that will never happen. but i am so glad that i am a little more at ease now about this ridiculous fear!
i hate seeing mice. and rats. did i ever tell you about that time in india when i shared my room with a rat? it was really horrible. but not as horrible as the fact that we still have not spoken on the phone. we need to fix this situation soon. until then, be well.